Believing for miracles is not foreign to me.
It wasn’t something I prayed into all my life, I grew up relying solely on the sovereignty of a far-off cosmic God and less on His willingness to answer my requests as my good Father.
In the past ten years I’ve come to lean on His ability to miraculously heal, provide, show up in power, change impossible circumstances etc.
Back when I’ve prayed and believed with others for Jesus to do impossible things, it was for disease to dissipate, for hearts to heal, for needs to be met, debts paid off.
He is faithful.
Lately we have again seen His hand work wonders greater than doctors expected, as we hoped.
Today we walk through a mine field of certainty in His work of complete healing in Allora’s body while being required to treat a disease we know He eradicated completely before the day 28 scans on her treatment roadmap.
Lately, my prayers look a little more like praying for impossible strength as a mama bear.
Strength to bear the most well intentioned people poisoning my child when I know in my heart of hearts she is, without any doubt, already cured.
Faith to believe in His ability to protect her from long and late side effects.
Peace that overwhelms a mother’s mind racing with possible outcomes from this un-editable roadmap of care.
Wisdom to know the difference between what we can and cannot change, and the ability to place it in His hands over and over again.
The answer most recently resounding in my spirit is it’s possible the only change that might come is a change in myself, in my own heart and worldview.
Could it be the miracle we’ll see now is when a person or a whole family, is pushed past what they feel is possible to bear, God Almighty bares His mighty hand and makes a desert place into a oasis?
Perhaps amidst the difficulty you’re facing, He wants to cultivate a gorgeous garden right in the middle of apparent or looming desolation.
The God of the impossible may seem silent to you, all the while His miracle working hand is quietly carving out (( inside of you )) a way where there was no way before.
Maybe your surrendered heart,
from the deepest place,
is the biggest miraculous gift of all
in your hardest, darkest circumstance.